First experience

I'm doing it all alone with loud music playing and still I don't feel happy at all...what the hell to me????
Second round for myself for today and it's the first time i came here...without anyone accompanying and drinking alone....
Why it's happening to me

Not desperate

Telling myself that I shouldn't let guys know that I'm desperate but I'm telling myself it's not the time yet...
I must take care of myself before things get wrong...

Lifeless

Living without friends are totally really lifeless journey to go through. Have friends but ended up nothing. Accept for who they are but they didnt think to accept back for who we are.
I honestly really feel sucks everyday. Contacts are useless because, NO ONE understands and do things together. IT REALLY SUCKS!!!