Really really fast and Frust

It's been just a month and 3 days since started this relationship. And what I had been thinking has started. The way the relationship becomes an issue where less messaging started, trust is an issue, jealousy increasing, and maybe argument will start soon.

I guess I had been pampering him already and he started to use this advantage. At the same time, I'm thinking, is he really what worth fighting for? At first when he asked me to be his girlfriend, I already thought it was fast already. Now, it seems like I'm falling down real fast. Faster than he does and he's having the advantage of me fears of losing him than he does.

I really need to slow things down. I really need to stop myself falling fast. But gravity seems to making it work real fast. Just according to my weight and the gravity, it already does it work.

I need focus focus focus. Stop thinking more than just for myself. I'm trying I'm trying. Trying real hard. I woke up already from this reality world

It's new or old

I don't really treat much as how I treat my ex bf did. Because I'm enough with fooling n cheatings.

Everytime I see u and keep looking into ur face, u felt like I've threaten u. I guess I should be holding on. And won't interrupt your space to achieve what u wan.

Although there are a lot of eyes looking at you, they still wouldn't feel the someway as I did. Just like how our 1st month anniversary been.

I just love him. I really don't know why.

My plan

I guessed I'm going to be the one who qui te the job..since I have more to lose than a guy who said that he loves me so much.

Living the new me

It's such a big change when I met him and started when he first asked me to be his girl friend on Sunday night. Where I'm this bar alone, he treat me really good at that time. I just knew I didn't know what to believe I or what u should believe._
Ceh he was asking the question...I've been thinking till the way we have a family someday. The main pint would be...who would accept him like how I accept him as who how is..

I love him very much

Quite sometime

It's been quite sometime i did not write anything here. As for myself, I knew what's been happening around me lately. Mostly I feel happy when its daytime but when it comes to night time. I felt that, night time will take a quite a moment to been through it alone. I'm still trying to make myself used to it. Previously was with family. Dinner with them then come back home from dinner and have a rest. Where I could not even fell asleep. I'm trying to make myself sleep, but still couldn't. I hope I can be alright. A normal person who I am used to be, where I don't even have a partner that I had earlier or even maybe present.

Life is about going through adventures and also living in the life of mysterious life. Been through everything made us feel that, people can be influenced. It's just like when we were kid, we are so wishing that we could be grow up faster and try to join the elders for the certain activities. But when we are adults, we are thinking or wishing that we could turn back the time and let us be young again. Where we could not been thinking much about future.