PeopleS

I didn't know why there are some certain type of a group of people who likes to disturb others people's life instead thinking about theirs?

Is that fun to manipulate other people's true story and turned it into ur own story?I certainly certainly hate the people.The people who I knew since i was born,kept trying to find ways to take the opportunity to being involved in my story.Manipulate it,turn lie into trust which that hurt me the most!

Everyone have their own journey and own story to tell.YOU doesn't need to help them tell the story with some additions in it.You have your story and I have mine!So please...don't be a loser and try to gain people's trust and turn them down when YOU doesn't like ME or anyone else!

Think for yourself if I'm the one who done that kind of stupid stuffs to you.What would u feel first of all? Angry? Sad? Hurt? Well, don't try to think that I'm very weak.I knew I'm weak.It doesn't mean I wouldn't stand much stronger than I am before.Stop being a fool.

Ask who you are and what character are you in YOUR STORY instead asking ME or anyone else about MY story or theirs.Be smart.Don't play with the truth.You'll be ugly at last.Think properly before you act.

My Life and Me for today,7 July '09

I couldnt find myself in the right way,when everyone made judgement on every angle of it as possible. I could barely even make myself a judgement. I'm confused,stucked,narrowed-minded,unconfident,shamed and etc. Every person I've met,I really jealous everything they had. The life they go through,the future they pictured,the confident in them and every way it goes.

I wouldnt find myself wrong when i said the facts what had happened to me,my life,my journey,my experience,my joy,my emotion,my family and my future. I wouldnt even want to be blamed to speaking out the ugly truth. It's the matter in fact,they couldnt accept it as a mistake and turn it all around. I accepted the fact what kind of life i'm having now,journey i'm going through,experience i'm experiencing,emotions i'm feeling. It's all an extraordinary for me as a 20-years-old-going-adult-young-lady. Most of all,I'm been a patient young lady since I was born into this earth.

But,in fact,everything i did and said are all covered story. I felt very miserable. I couldnt speak what's on my mind. All of it,erased in case I'm not being thought as a story teller or a liar. I knew i'm weak,unconfident,unrealistic,very emotional,sensitive,running out of my mind and i'm going to be ended up as a mental patient. All of everything I did,it doesnt go well or it ended up as if i'm giving excuses to get what I wanted.

Lost

Now i really know what i can really choose and where i can really go.

Although i know what i want and where i want to go,it's still no use as it's not accepted at all.

Everything are limited for me.

Where i would end up to be?

I'm lost now.

HELP!