My Dearest Aunt

It's been just a while she just passed away just like that. When i got the news from mom, I'm zipped...didn't know what to say. The last time i visit her in the hospital was just yesterday before i came back to my hostel. Actually i wasn't feel alright these days right after we celebrated her birthday with us just on sunday for the last 2 weeks. But, that day she wasn't in a mood it's as if she knew something is going to happen and she wouldn't let us know. So, we won't worry about her. She insisted till on Tuesday where she complaint her painful arm whereby the cancer cells started to spread right after long time ago where she had breast cancer. She done the surgery and one side of her breast is gone.

After for so long, cancer cells moved and spread to another place and start to mutate the skin cells just right on her right arm. It spreads very quickly, without noticing. It swollen,reddish, and even felt numb. Every of her son and daughter who are my cousins told us how much she used to be so optimistic and strong but now she started to become weaker and weaker by each day those cancer cells attacked her. It all started late last year where some part of her throat swollen too. Next was her arm. Doctor been researching for this cell but still there is no cure to prevent it. More and more people got this kind of disease where there's no cure unless we know how to prevent and avoid it ourself by taking good care of our health and first of all by daily food intake.

Cancer cells really can frightened you for the first time but when it comes to the next level, you'll suffer the moment right after that. They recognized the anti-bodies in our body and they even changed themselves or improve themselves by genetically so that they can overcome our antibody and starts to conquer the part which can be easily affected. I still remember how she manage to get everything done even helping on her own sister's restaurant. She helped her each day without stopping until the day she got sick and she need to take some rest at home to cure it. I've even remembered when my family and I used to went back our hometown at Sungkai,Ipoh, she always know what I want to eat which is Assam Laksa. It was my favourite food. She really used to be a happy aunt,mom,wife,daughter and even grandma. She really is a good person! I'm missing those moments....

In spite, for the first time i heard my mom that she was hospitalized, I was not that scare since she just complaint her arm was in pain. Then the next day, I was on my way back home from college, I've called dad, he told me she only got few days left to live. Tears bursting out my eyes but i try to stay strong since many people were surrounding that place. So, when i got back my room, I've started thinking back about last time moments. Before she was hospitalized, i remembered i couln't sleep well and even my right-hand bottom eyelid was like clicking...and i know something bad is going to happen...but i didnt think it was my aunt who will be hospitalized.....For the first time i visit her in the hospital, she was lying there without opening her eyes maybe because doctor prescribed her 1ml of morphin each drop like that! IT'S MORPHIN! GOD SAKE! it's a very strong medicine as a pain killer! But without it, she can't resist her pain at her arm.

Right after my dad fetched me there. Everyone was there,sitting,standing,blurring,sad-ding,praying....and when i first saw her. I'm really in shock...both of her arms were infected....Usually when we're visiting patient, we try to communicate with them and tell them who's here to visit her/him. Her son told me to call her and tell her who am i.....I was really didn't know how to open my mouth and tears starting to flow....I really really can't open my mouth and call her but i'm always right beside her....looking on her condition,looking on the droplets of 1ml of morphin and total of 50ml she had taken...It's very strong until she can't even wake up nicely and being fresh....It was happening fast right after that...Cancer issues kept flashing on my mind...telling me how ridiculous and how horrible cancer cells can attack you with no notation or any message. It just came to you without you noticing or everyone else....her cancer was in the 1st stage....

I'm now completely restless...every part of my body need to take some rest and my mind need to clear off everything which is bad...Last but not least, I'm gonna miss her....May u rest in peace...I love you! We all loved you!!